Feb 17th Not enough hours in the day.
Another bag full! Doesn't seem any tidier though =/
6th January Nightmarish numbers - want to stab myself.
5th January Guilt, shame - best stick to apples.
4th January Throat kills, plans went unfulfilled. Bollocks.
3rd January Watched film. Wore pyjamas all day.
2nd January Went outside, decided i can't cope.
1st January Woke late, unimpressed with new year.
31st December No potatoes thank you, not optimistic.
30th December Avoiding the clock, eating too much.
god this is going to take months
made not finished, dont know if i will..
panicking, still going!
1 – your sibling/closest relative
2 – the friendliest person you only knew for one day
3 – someone you want to give a second chance to
4- someone that pesters your mind, good or bad
5 – the person you miss the most
6 – the person you wish you could be
7 – someone you’ve drifted away from
8 – the person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
9 – the last person you made a pinky promise to
10 – your dreams
11 – your parents
12 – a stranger
13 – the person that gave you your favourite memory
14 – your favourite internet friend
15 – someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
16 – someone that’s not in your state/country
17 – the one that broke your heart the hardest
18 – your crush
19 – a deceased person you wish you could talk to
20 – someone that changed your mind
21 – someone you judged by their first impression
22 – your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
23 – your best friend
24 – the person you know that is going through the worst of times
25 – someone you wish could forgive you
26 – someone from your childhood
27 – the last person you kissed
28 – someone you wish you could meet
29 – the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
30 – your reflection in the mirror
7 Things x 2012
My seven answers to the Day Zero alternative New Year's resolutions
- Learn how to socialize
- Start taking my camera everywhere
- Stop counting calories
- Take a vacation to the Lake District
- Find hope
- Try taking a class in something
- Be more thrifty
4/5 rose bun
That's 5 bags so far =/
Threw out 2 binbags of stuff ^_^
10 days i think i'm going to say I'VE QUIT.
Switched to nutrition drinks.
Cool as a cucumber =D
1. What is your idea of perfect happiness?
Not having a single thought in my head.
2. What is your greatest fear?
Anything happening to Joey.
3. Which living person do you most admire and why?
No one, everyone has too many flaws.
4. What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
My entire personality, if it can be called a personality.
5. What is the trait you most deplore in others?
6. What has been your most embarrassing moment?
Take your pick from any time i've been drunk.
7. What vehicles do you own?
My computer chair has wheels...
8. What is your greatest extravagance?
I'm a.. shopaholic.
9. What is your most treasured possession?
10. Where would you like to live?
11. What makes you depressed?
Looking to the future and seeing nothing.
12. What do you most dislike about your appearance?
The fact that i look like me.
13. Who would play you in a movie of your life?
Christina Richie because she has bug eyes and a fat face too.
14. What is your most unappealing habit?
Peeling my nail polish off.
15. What is your favourite smell?
Things like hazelnut, almond. The smell of Ojon hair stuff.
16. What is your favourite word?
Fluff. It makes me think happy things.
17. What is your favourite book?
18. What is your fancy dress costume of choice?
Anything with blood. I like having an excuse to be in public covered in blood.
19. Radiator or air conditioning?
Radiator, i don't know what i'd do without it, it's comforting.
20. Cat or dog?
Cats, come on what kind of a question is that?
21. Is it better to give or to receive?
Both are full of fear and anticipation, but i just like buying things, i feel less guilty if it's not for me.
22. What is your guiltiest pleasure?
I don't know, sitting in front of the heater wasting money and watching Jeremy Kyle.
23. To whom would you most like to say sorry and why?
I don't do apologies but i would say sorry to my parents for being such a disappointment and source of shame.
24. What or who is the greatest inspiration?
THE greatest inspiration is nature. Chaotic and beautiful.
25. Which living person do you most despise and why?
Cunting Asshole, though i've not so much as heard from him in years, he still brings me down every day, judging everything i do.
26. Have you ever said “I love you” without meaning it?
More times than i've meant it.
27. Which words or phrases do you most overuse?
Bunny, fuck, bollocks. Not all together though.
28. What has been your biggest disappointment?
Each year looking back and nothing's changed.
29. What is your greatest regret?
Not taking charge of my life.
30. When and where were you happiest?
Running around in italy with a camera glued to my face.
31. When did you last cry, and why?
Couple of days ago because i felt empty.
32. How do you relax?
Computer, coffee, cigarette.
33. What single thing would improve the quality of your life?
Having a passion.
34. What do you consider your greatest achievement?
35. What keeps you awake at night?
Everything i've done, everything i haven't done, everything i need to do.
36. What song would you like played at your funeral?
Something by Akira Yamaoka.
37. How would you like to be remembered?
I hope not to be.
38. What is the most important lesson life has taught you?
People are assholes.
Trimmed back to waist length, lovely blunt hemline =D
4 days soda free! my teeth are happy
eating more, not panicking... honest
3 days no soda!
everything bought now i'm broke XD
24 hours no soda! woop woop
3/5 - Braided wrap bun
2/5 - Chinese bun
Foundation, eyeliner, mascara
1)How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
13. Young, angsty and confused about life. I don't think i will ever feel like a grown up.
2)Which is worse, failing or never trying?
Failing. At least if you don't try, you still have hope.
3)If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
Because we're told all our lives we have to conform and do so without batting an eyelid. You either fall in line or you become an outsider, untouchable.
4)When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
5)What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
6)If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
Playing videogames with a cat on my lap.
7)Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
I believe in nothing, therefore i have nothing.
8)If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
I would still be miserable.
9)To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
I've taken very little control in my life. That's why it's slipped past me.
10)Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
Doing things right.
11)You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
Stick up for my friend, but also be aware that i may not know them as well as i thought i did...
12)If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
Quit while you're ahead.
13)Would you break the law to save a loved one?
14)Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
There is not one without the other.
15)What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
16)How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
There is very little that makes me happy.
17)What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
I want to feel peaceful. My head noise stops me.
18)Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
Too many things.
19)If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
Japan because it's beautiful and i want to wake up to that every day.
20)Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
21)Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
I'm a worried simpleton, i'd like to be joyful.
22)Why are you, you?
I failed at being anybody else.
23)Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
No. I'd hate me as a friend.
24)Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
Losing touch with someone near, because there is the expectation to make contact... and you don't, you leave it too long.
25)What are you most grateful for?
26)Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
I'd lose all the old ones in an instant.
27)Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
28)Has your greatest fear ever come true?
My greatest fear is continuing to live this way. So far, yes it's true.
29)Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
It still hurts from time to time.
30)What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
I don't have one. It should have been just being young, not having made the wrong choices yet.
31)At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
32)If not now, then when?
When i feel like i won't break.
33)If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
34)Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
35)Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
Because people are flawed.
36)Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
37)If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
I don't have one to quit.
38)Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
39)Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
40)When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
41)If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
My postman, to make sure i get my mail.
42)Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
43)What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
Truly living is something i've yet to experience.
44)When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
When you know what is right.
45)If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
Because they hurt.
46)What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
47)When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
Last night trying to sleep.
48)What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
I don't know.
49)In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
50)Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
I'm not making any decisions.
Finished wrapping presents, just a few more things to buy... Must get it all done and out of the way early!
4/31 - buying new (smaller) vits tomorrow ew ew ew!
3/31 - ugh i need better tasting vitamins
1/5 - Orchid Bun