21 Jan 2010: My addiction

21/12/09: 230

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? 27
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying? Never Trying
3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? The grass is always greener on the other side, and I like to please people.
4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? I would like to be the person who has done more, but I think I am the person who says more.
5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? Hunger, not everyone is going to like everyone else, but I know what it's like to not eat for a week, and it sucks.
6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich? Travel, and seeing new things.
7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing? I don't know what I believe in, but I'm learning so for now I'm doing what I like.
8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently? Yes, I would be present.
9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken? 90%
10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? I think there is a time and a place for both.
11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do? Why would I admire those kind of people?
12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be? Travel.
13. Would you break the law to save a loved one? Yes.
14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity? No.
15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people? Think, your mind it truly the only thing that is yours.
16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy? Experience.
17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back? Travel the world, Money.
18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? Yes. Coach.
19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why? Thailand, I've never been there and it sounds warm and cheep.
20. Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster? No, and those people annoy me.
21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton? Worried genius.
22. Why are you, you? Nothing of me is original. I am the combined effort of everybody I've ever known.
23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend? Yes and I haven't.
24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you? Losing touch.
25. What are you most grateful for? Being in France, and a family who loves me.
26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones? Never be able to make new ones.
27. Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first? No.
28. Has your greatest fear ever come true? I don't know what my greatest fear is.
29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now? Yes, probably not, but it still bugs me.
30. What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special? Watching James Bond movies with my Grandma Honey and Coach. Because I was ignorant then.
31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive? When I first got to France.
32. If not now, then when? I don't know why now.
33. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose? Nothing, but it's hard to try.
34. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever? Yes, it's great when it happens.
35. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars? The natural state of humans is war.
36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil? No, the world is grey.
37. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job? No.
38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing? More work.
39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before? Yes, more and more.
40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in? I was a world away.
41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today? I wouldn't be able to visit any of the ones that really mattered.
42. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous? YES!
43. What is the difference between being alive and truly living? Truly living is being alive.
44. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right? Calculating? I'm not even to that point yet in my life.
45. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? Because getting there is a hard road to walk.
46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? I would be a prostitute.
47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing? Just right now, OMG, right before I read this question.
48. What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love? I love traveling. I don't know.
49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that? I will remember what I did today, but the last 6 weeks have been a blur of nothing.
50. Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you? I usually make the wrong ones.

16/12/09 do again in 1001 days. (less)

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? 27
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying? Never Trying
3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? The grass is always greener on the other side, and I like to please people.
4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? I would like to be the person who has done more, but I think I am the person who says more.
5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? Hunger, not everyone is going to like everyone else, but (...more)

19/1/10: Today I was walking to the CROUS to buy tickets for a show when I walked by the Christian Bookstore that I see almost everyday. I keep meaning to go in there to see if they have any bibles. Bilingual French/English and today while I was walking by they had Bibles for sale. 1E50. So I bought one and now I have it. It felt weird walking in there, but I said I didn't care. They man who sold it to me was nice and there was only one other lady in the store. She might have worked there. I put it in my purse before i left the store. Assamed me? I duno. I'm in the middle of crisis of faith, for some reason this helps. I don't know how thought. (less)

19/1/10: Today I was walking to the CROUS to buy tickets for a show when I walked by the Christian Bookstore that I see almost everyday. I keep meaning to go in there to see if they have any bibles. Bilingual French/English and today while I was walking by they had Bibles for sale. 1E50. So I bought one and now I have it. It felt weird walking in there, but I said I didn't care. They man who sold it to me was nice and there was only one other lady in the store. She might have worked there. I put it in my purse before i left the store. Assamed me? I duno. I'm in the middle of crisis o (...more)

21/12/09: La Haine (1995)

Before Starting:
John 3:16
2 Tim 3:14-15

23/12/09: I haven't had soda since the 18th! I know cider is sweet and carbonated, but lets not count that!

25/1/10: I have a lost of what was in SIN by urban decay. I think I'm going to stock up online, and try to have it made professionally.

3/1/10 I've made a list of everything I need. I'm doing this new thing where I have only that I need and I'm going for quality vs quantity.

24/1/10: That list has turned into a spreadsheet complete with brand names and serial numbers. I'm going for a lax, jeans and tee's socal look with French accessories, Japaneses gadgets and timeless rockabilly accents.

I will highlight the books in my bible as I finish reading them.