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7 Things x 2025
My seven answers to the Day Zero alternative New Year's resolutions poll:
My seven answers to the Day Zero alternative New Year's resolutions poll:
- Learn how to Reading Books and collecting my favorite things
- Start To work out and be fit
- Stop Being angry
- Take a vacation to Morocco
- Find The fourth dimension
- Try Interior design
- Be more Peaceful
Note added to goal I planned a nice vacation when my mom and dad came to visit
My mom came to visit! I took her to visit my city. We visited the whole town, the beaches and the historic villages around! I'm so satified!
Change my feelings:
1- I cultivate peace of mind. I know that I can change my thoughts and the way that I feel
Gratitude:
2- I live in a constant state of gratitude for everything.
Create:
3- I’m the creator of my life. As creator, I decide what I want to create, I plan how I’m going to create it, and I take the necessary steps to create it.
Trust myself:
4- I trust myself and my vision and listen to my inner voice.
Love myself:
5- I treat myself like someone I love and respect.
Meet the opportunities:
6- I meet each day with reverence for the opportunities that it contains.
Improving:
7- I'm always improving
Other realities:
8- I don’t take things personally. I know that what others say and do is a projection of their own reality; it has nothing to do with me.
Positive:
9- I talk health, happiness and prosperity to every person I meet.
Persist:
10- I persevere until I reach my goals. Ignore circumstances.
1- I cultivate peace of mind. I know that I can change my thoughts and the way that I feel
Gratitude:
2- I live in a constant state of gratitude for everything.
Create:
3- I’m the creator of my life. As creator, I decide what I want to create, I plan how I’m going to create it, and I take the necessary steps to create it.
Trust myself:
4- I trust myself and my vision and listen to my inner voice.
Love myself:
5- I treat myself like someone I love and respect.
Meet the opportunities:
6- I meet each day with reverence for the opportunities that it contains.
Improving:
7- I'm always improving
Other realities:
8- I don’t take things personally. I know that what others say and do is a projection of their own reality; it has nothing to do with me.
Positive:
9- I talk health, happiness and prosperity to every person I meet.
Persist:
10- I persevere until I reach my goals. Ignore circumstances.
Change my feelings:
1- I cultivate peace of mind. I know that I can change my thoughts and the way that I feel
Gratitude:
2- I live in a constant state of gratitude for everything.
Create:
3- I’m the creator of my life. As creator, I decide what I want to create, I plan how I’m going to create it, and I take the necessary steps to create it.
Trust myself:
4- I trust myself and my vision and listen to my inner voice.
Love myself:
5- I treat myself like someone I love and respect.
Meet the opportunities:
6- I meet each day with reverence for the opportunities that it contains.
Improving:
7- I'm always improving
Other realities:
8- I don’t take things personally. I know that what others say and do is a projection of their own reality; it has nothing to do with me.
Positive:
9- I talk health, happiness and prosperity to every person I meet.
Persist:
10- I persevere until I reach my goals. Ignore circumstances.
1- I cultivate peace of mind. I know that I can change my thoughts and the way that I feel
Gratitude:
2- I live in a constant state of gratitude for everything.
Create:
3- I’m the creator of my life. As creator, I decide what I want to create, I plan how I’m going to create it, and I take the necessary steps to create it.
Trust myself:
4- I trust myself and my vision and listen to my inner voice.
Love myself:
5- I treat myself like someone I love and respect.
Meet the opportunities:
6- I meet each day with reverence for the opportunities that it contains.
Improving:
7- I'm always improving
Other realities:
8- I don’t take things personally. I know that what others say and do is a projection of their own reality; it has nothing to do with me.
Positive:
9- I talk health, happiness and prosperity to every person I meet.
Persist:
10- I persevere until I reach my goals. Ignore circumstances.
A bridge of incidents led me to receiving a small amount on money. This happened without any repercussions.
I know have that small amount of money which makes me believe that receiving an important amount just the same IS possible.
So thanks to an improbable and yet simple bridge of incidents, i know own an amount of money that allows me to live confortably and that brings peace of mind for the future.
It feels great having this financial confort, it feels peaceful and it gives me great hope to pursue personal projects such as owning my home and having ressources for my children. It also feels freeing to be able to dedicate my time and energy to work that matters to me now and which i feel makes a diffrence
I know have that small amount of money which makes me believe that receiving an important amount just the same IS possible.
So thanks to an improbable and yet simple bridge of incidents, i know own an amount of money that allows me to live confortably and that brings peace of mind for the future.
It feels great having this financial confort, it feels peaceful and it gives me great hope to pursue personal projects such as owning my home and having ressources for my children. It also feels freeing to be able to dedicate my time and energy to work that matters to me now and which i feel makes a diffrence
We had a training at work for team work and workflow.
They said they advised our company to organize leadership training.
I would love to be part of the leadership training, where I can learn interpersonal skills that can help me in achieving my carreer goals. I hope to be offered an opportunity to apply these leadership skills by someone who notices my skills and my spirit at work.
I also am taking voice lessons to better control my voice during presentations and meeting. Better pronounciation, flow and stress management.
They said they advised our company to organize leadership training.
I would love to be part of the leadership training, where I can learn interpersonal skills that can help me in achieving my carreer goals. I hope to be offered an opportunity to apply these leadership skills by someone who notices my skills and my spirit at work.
I also am taking voice lessons to better control my voice during presentations and meeting. Better pronounciation, flow and stress management.
I was offered a lottery ticket before my 31st birthday. I have never played lottery before.
I have something numbers on my notes app. So i put in the numbers and the next day i won the lottery. It was a life changing and vert helpful amount of money that helped me finish my projects.
I felt very lucky and grateful and that was the best gift the universe could send to me on such a special date.
It all led to these winning numbers. Just like what happened in Barcelona. I felt heard and seen and more present than ever. And without a doubt i feel helped and supported. So i'm very thankful and touched to be part of a beautiful existence
I have something numbers on my notes app. So i put in the numbers and the next day i won the lottery. It was a life changing and vert helpful amount of money that helped me finish my projects.
I felt very lucky and grateful and that was the best gift the universe could send to me on such a special date.
It all led to these winning numbers. Just like what happened in Barcelona. I felt heard and seen and more present than ever. And without a doubt i feel helped and supported. So i'm very thankful and touched to be part of a beautiful existence
7 Things x 2024
My seven answers to the Day Zero alternative New Year's resolutions poll:
My seven answers to the Day Zero alternative New Year's resolutions poll:
- Learn how to Speak with eloquence and confidence
- Start Yoga,pilates
- Stop Doubting the future
- Take a vacation to Iceland, japan
- Find Passion for new work
- Try Apnee
- Be more Charismatic
My boyfriend proposed to me in the little village by the lake/ocean that we like. He booked a night in a hotel by the lake/ocean. He brought the exact ring i've been wanting!
I live in a beautiful city house: It hass white and cream walls, rustic and hass a long corridor which leads to the garden. The kitechen has a big sink, lots of wood and plants.
We have a fireplace, a big wood table, textures and nice mosaics.
We have a fireplace, a big wood table, textures and nice mosaics.
7 Things x 2024
My seven answers to the Day Zero alternative New Year's resolutions poll:
My seven answers to the Day Zero alternative New Year's resolutions poll:
- Learn how to Swim and dive
- Start running
- Stop looking for outside validation
- Take a vacation to Iceland, Japan
- Find a lasting job i'm good at and passionate about
- Try skill certifications
- Be more confident and wellspoken
After my federal first level confirmation, I participated in a mission with an NGO to clean the ocean. We went on a trip to nearby waters and gathered plastic. It was a very rewarding experience!
I got asked to participate in a project. I had exactly the right qualifications for this role and contributed immensely. I got recognition for my contribution which helped to make a very significant impact finacially and process-wise. I was surprised to have come up with these solutions and how it was greatly rewarded. My colleagues were very respectful towards me throughtout the project and that boosted me to have confidence and to come up with the results that were helpful.
He proposed with a very beautiful ring! To which he put a lot of thought and such a special ring, I was so suprised to know the story behind it!
He is very generous and gives a lot in the relationship. Takes care of many things and I feel safe and taken care of with him. He is very proud of me and shows it with his friends and family.
We went on a trip where he really showed how much he cares for me. I'm very happy!
He is very generous and gives a lot in the relationship. Takes care of many things and I feel safe and taken care of with him. He is very proud of me and shows it with his friends and family.
We went on a trip where he really showed how much he cares for me. I'm very happy!
Todo this with my mom next year 2024
I live in a beautiful home with my husband, children. We have a dog (and a cat ;) )
It's sunny as I walk through the hallway leading to the sunny terrasse. Holding my child on my side.
It's sunny as I walk through the hallway leading to the sunny terrasse. Holding my child on my side.
I am dabbling in somatic experiences
I can now see where the illness comes from emotionally
So, I'm trying to heal emotionally to heal physically
I can now see where the illness comes from emotionally
So, I'm trying to heal emotionally to heal physically
i received a beautiful bouquet for my 30th birthday from my beautiful girlfriend 
We are both in love and committed for the long run.
He is everything I ever wanted and he loves me so deeply. He chose me and he asked me to move in and live together. We have a beautiful appartment, sunny with plants and my cat running around. We have lazy sunny sundays.
He is everything I ever wanted and he loves me so deeply. He chose me and he asked me to move in and live together. We have a beautiful appartment, sunny with plants and my cat running around. We have lazy sunny sundays.
Note added to goal The universe sent me the perfect match in the right pplace at the right time
This feeling!
He is beautiful and exactly the body type I'm attracted to. More than I could have dreamed and imagined. Dreamy in every way. Tall. Sporty. Beautiful smile. Athletic type. Great hair. Perfect length. Matching energy. Silly and sensitive. Naive and innocent. A good person. Kind heart. Golden retriver energy. He is a happy person who loves himself and loves the world. Go getter. Can do energy. Optimist. He wants me in his life and is sure about it. We're silly together. It's easy and it's effortless. We talk and it feels smooth and natural.
This love found me. It's magical and it's firey. But it evolves smoothly and steadily. It feels right and it all falls into place.
sign: SMILEY : )
He is beautiful and exactly the body type I'm attracted to. More than I could have dreamed and imagined. Dreamy in every way. Tall. Sporty. Beautiful smile. Athletic type. Great hair. Perfect length. Matching energy. Silly and sensitive. Naive and innocent. A good person. Kind heart. Golden retriver energy. He is a happy person who loves himself and loves the world. Go getter. Can do energy. Optimist. He wants me in his life and is sure about it. We're silly together. It's easy and it's effortless. We talk and it feels smooth and natural.
This love found me. It's magical and it's firey. But it evolves smoothly and steadily. It feels right and it all falls into place.
sign: SMILEY : )
applied for citizenship in december 2022
7 Things x 2023
My seven answers to the Day Zero alternative New Year's resolutions poll:
My seven answers to the Day Zero alternative New Year's resolutions poll:
- Learn how to Invest and make more money
- Start Career planning
- Stop Thinking about other people
- Take a vacation to Antarctica
- Find A boyfriend
- Try A new sport
- Be more Confident
I just realized as I approche my thirties that I have never received flowers as a young woman, can you believe. I have sent and gifted a lot of flowers to my girlfriends but I haven't received either from them or from a man I've dated. I'd like to receive some flowers someday.
I've done this twice with the person i've been wanting to sleep with for the last 5 months.
Note added to goal The universe sent me the perfect match in the right pplace at the right time
I met my match at the right time in the right place. I had certainty and we "knew". It was the easiest flowing conversation and the feeling of knowing we would be together and that we're the ones we've been waiting for. There was certainty of his interest in me. He made it very clear he recognized me and that he was interested.
I have a love that's good and right.
Keywords: sea, boat, wavy hair, hand touching, fingers intertwined, orange flower
I have a love that's good and right.
Keywords: sea, boat, wavy hair, hand touching, fingers intertwined, orange flower
My friends and parents told me on several occasions that I'm beautiful. I feel it and see it too 
To more beauty, sensuality, confidence and radiance!
To more beauty, sensuality, confidence and radiance!
Having read Getting To Do, sex is absolutely ruined for me. I do not know how to differentiate between sexual attraction and real feelings of love or attachment. And this is what's keeping me from going for it when the perfect opportunities had presented themselves. Regret!
I really hope to meet someone i'm attracted to enough to want to have sex with them. I will try not to get too much in my head about it and just do it. I think that meeting NLR sort of put me on the spot to have courage to do this. We didn't do it, but I feel like I'm half way there. I hope the perfect opportunity presents itself really soon, just like it did the other two previous occasions. I just know it will happen
I really hope to meet someone i'm attracted to enough to want to have sex with them. I will try not to get too much in my head about it and just do it. I think that meeting NLR sort of put me on the spot to have courage to do this. We didn't do it, but I feel like I'm half way there. I hope the perfect opportunity presents itself really soon, just like it did the other two previous occasions. I just know it will happen
New old friends? New old friends? 11 house action. Seeing my old friends and traveling with them Very lucky!
Very lucky!He feels familiar and warm. He's mischevious and so smart but keeps his wits to himself. Doesn't talk much but is naturally funny and appeasing. We don't need to talk to understand eachother. Just being in silence with him is appeasing. I feel so comfortable around him.
Today I asked the guy I've had a crush on for the last two months if he wanted to see me and he declined.
I've been building this attraction from an unrequited crush and it feels like being in hell. I don't ever want to be in a fantasy crush that doesn't exist in real life anymore. It's the worst feeling, pit in my stomach that won't go away. Feeling like trash, feeling invisible, non-existent, insignificant, ugly, disgusting.
I want the next I feel these intense emotions of attraction and infatuation towards someone, that they feel the same for me. To be both into it, going on adventures, mischevious, fun, intense, young love that feels free but deep. I want someone to kiss passionately and know it's not all in my head. I want to make love over and over and over again to them and to be present and in lust and in love with them and not alone in it. I don't ever want to feel this alone ever again.
I've been building this attraction from an unrequited crush and it feels like being in hell. I don't ever want to be in a fantasy crush that doesn't exist in real life anymore. It's the worst feeling, pit in my stomach that won't go away. Feeling like trash, feeling invisible, non-existent, insignificant, ugly, disgusting.
I want the next I feel these intense emotions of attraction and infatuation towards someone, that they feel the same for me. To be both into it, going on adventures, mischevious, fun, intense, young love that feels free but deep. I want someone to kiss passionately and know it's not all in my head. I want to make love over and over and over again to them and to be present and in lust and in love with them and not alone in it. I don't ever want to feel this alone ever again.
I have become more confident in general.
With the exception of dating, where I sometimes feel not good enough for someone to like me back. working on my self concept in that department.
With the exception of dating, where I sometimes feel not good enough for someone to like me back. working on my self concept in that department.
I feel that i'm getting prettier and more attractive.
People have repeated to me that they find me pretty
People have repeated to me that they find me pretty
I reconnected to old friends who I haven't seen in years. Plans to meet up.
I met some people using apps
I met some people using apps
Work related to Land monitoring
43 + some benefits
Moved to a big city in febuary 2022
Got a nice position in a bigcompany. Started mid febuary. Possibilities of evolution
3 weeks into being contacts on ig. He's watching my stories.
Applied to two companies I'm passionate about in two bigger cities.
Hopeful! Living in the end!
Hopeful! Living in the end!
I remember two years ago walking into an anayst's office, as she described it, completely lost. Asking her whatever it means to be a "woman" and not even being able to refer to myself as a woman, as I felt unworthy and so far from that word.
I've spent the last couple of years (the last years of my twenties!) completely alone. Examining myself and I have vowed not to start my thirties in a lost headspace, not knowing who I am and hiding behind a wall of words.
I am building myself bit by bit, reparenting, reconnecting with my inner child, my inner self and my actual mother.
I started to actually reveal myself to my own mother after years of grey rocking. I'm expressing my feelings freely -very hard, yet very powerful-, defending my ideas, and being open to debate them and change them too. Emotions come in the form of waves. At times I ride the waves, and at some other times I just let myself be taken over by them.
Nurturing energy emerging from my body. Nurturing myself and defenseless beings. Loving living beings, animals, and plants. Even people at times.
I've spent the last couple of years (the last years of my twenties!) completely alone. Examining myself and I have vowed not to start my thirties in a lost headspace, not knowing who I am and hiding behind a wall of words.
I am building myself bit by bit, reparenting, reconnecting with my inner child, my inner self and my actual mother.
I started to actually reveal myself to my own mother after years of grey rocking. I'm expressing my feelings freely -very hard, yet very powerful-, defending my ideas, and being open to debate them and change them too. Emotions come in the form of waves. At times I ride the waves, and at some other times I just let myself be taken over by them.
Nurturing energy emerging from my body. Nurturing myself and defenseless beings. Loving living beings, animals, and plants. Even people at times.
the best day
cardigan
cornelia street
king of my heart
cardigan
cornelia street
king of my heart
-How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
I feel 62
-Which is worse, failing or never trying?
Both are equally grusome.
-If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
Life is not short. Because there is a future. Andthe things we don't like provide security for the future even if it doesn't offer satisfaction in the present moment. And we like things we don't do beause it's an escape from the present moment, which is in fact eternal if awareness if focused towards it: Life is not short.
-When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
No. I should say more
-What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
Having more time for personal life
-If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
A work I'm good at. In which I don't have self-doubt, have the respect and consideration of my peers, in which I am needed and looked up to.
Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
-At the moment, I'm incorporating my beliefs into what I'm doing little by little. It was hard work feeling secure in myself. I still work on feeling secure in this world. Unless I feel,completely secure, I don't feel like i've earned the right to do what I believe, especially since my beliefs are constatly being challenge and subjected to constant change as I go through every experience in my life.
If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
-I don't think I would do anything differently. I needed whatever happened to me the last 28 years to learn what I know now and be what I am now. Since I'd have only 12 years left: I'd move to bigger city and try to have experiences with people and be less alone and isolated. I've thought it out, and now i'm ready to DO IT.
To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
-Most of it. Sometimes I should have let go of control and let it be...
Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
-That's just a fancy play on words. I'm worried about both.
You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
- Ask them why they have these feelings and try to understand it.
If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
- Know thyself
Would you break the law to save a loved one?
-Yes
Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
-Yes, in mysticism. Connection to self. To that things which is bigger than me. To how humanity creates by imagination. To how human imagination is creation. Divine. Talking to Gods inside of myself: Insane and creative.
What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
- Thinking+feeling
How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
Why are you, you?
Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
What are you most grateful for?
Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
Has your greatest fear ever come true?
Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
If not now, then when?
If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
I feel 62
-Which is worse, failing or never trying?
Both are equally grusome.
-If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
Life is not short. Because there is a future. Andthe things we don't like provide security for the future even if it doesn't offer satisfaction in the present moment. And we like things we don't do beause it's an escape from the present moment, which is in fact eternal if awareness if focused towards it: Life is not short.
-When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
No. I should say more
-What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
Having more time for personal life
-If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
A work I'm good at. In which I don't have self-doubt, have the respect and consideration of my peers, in which I am needed and looked up to.
Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
-At the moment, I'm incorporating my beliefs into what I'm doing little by little. It was hard work feeling secure in myself. I still work on feeling secure in this world. Unless I feel,completely secure, I don't feel like i've earned the right to do what I believe, especially since my beliefs are constatly being challenge and subjected to constant change as I go through every experience in my life.
If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
-I don't think I would do anything differently. I needed whatever happened to me the last 28 years to learn what I know now and be what I am now. Since I'd have only 12 years left: I'd move to bigger city and try to have experiences with people and be less alone and isolated. I've thought it out, and now i'm ready to DO IT.
To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
-Most of it. Sometimes I should have let go of control and let it be...
Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
-That's just a fancy play on words. I'm worried about both.
You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
- Ask them why they have these feelings and try to understand it.
If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
- Know thyself
Would you break the law to save a loved one?
-Yes
Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
-Yes, in mysticism. Connection to self. To that things which is bigger than me. To how humanity creates by imagination. To how human imagination is creation. Divine. Talking to Gods inside of myself: Insane and creative.
What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
- Thinking+feeling
How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
Why are you, you?
Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
What are you most grateful for?
Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
Has your greatest fear ever come true?
Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
If not now, then when?
If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
august
cornelia street
gorgeous
cornelia street
gorgeous
Trouble trouble trouble
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1- I'm passionate
2- I'm bold and courageous (even when I'm afraid)
3- I'm open to the spectrum of life experiences
4- I always want to learn and evolve
5- I care too deeply about living beings
6- I'm empathetic and l have a nurturing/protective streaks
7- I'm intelligent and flexible
8- I love self expression and love and accept when humans express their innermost selves
9- I'm ready to change my mind and see the other side of the coin
10- I'm intuitive and I can be deep about the nature of things and the underlying meanings and patterns of things
11- I always choose passion over fear
12- I see the best in people and believe in their potential
13- I do my best to go after what I want
14- I work hard for what I earn
15- I do not half-ass things
16- I can rebound from emotional injury
17- My imagination and depth of feeling and thought
18- My ability to emancipate from what others expect of me (even if I can be lost in that)
19- Living in two worlds (concrete/physical and imaginary/intuition) and being able to go back and forth without completely losing my mind (debatable)
20- I believe in magic
2- I'm bold and courageous (even when I'm afraid)
3- I'm open to the spectrum of life experiences
4- I always want to learn and evolve
5- I care too deeply about living beings
6- I'm empathetic and l have a nurturing/protective streaks
7- I'm intelligent and flexible
8- I love self expression and love and accept when humans express their innermost selves
9- I'm ready to change my mind and see the other side of the coin
10- I'm intuitive and I can be deep about the nature of things and the underlying meanings and patterns of things
11- I always choose passion over fear
12- I see the best in people and believe in their potential
13- I do my best to go after what I want
14- I work hard for what I earn
15- I do not half-ass things
16- I can rebound from emotional injury
17- My imagination and depth of feeling and thought
18- My ability to emancipate from what others expect of me (even if I can be lost in that)
19- Living in two worlds (concrete/physical and imaginary/intuition) and being able to go back and forth without completely losing my mind (debatable)
20- I believe in magic
Emotional volatility and emotional unavailability are clear as day right now.
I was attracted to 3 people in the span of maybe two weeks and none of it lead to anything real.
I am attracted to emotionally unavailable people, because I am emotionally unavailable. I get attached too quickly then bored too quickly. I burn out and can't stay interested.
So that's something I am working on, in order to be available and open to a real relationship...
I was attracted to 3 people in the span of maybe two weeks and none of it lead to anything real.
I am attracted to emotionally unavailable people, because I am emotionally unavailable. I get attached too quickly then bored too quickly. I burn out and can't stay interested.
So that's something I am working on, in order to be available and open to a real relationship...
I just delivered a complex project (6 months of work) So i supposed i need to upgrade this goal to: Become a good engineer
I can play some songs
Fingers less sore
need to work on transitions
Fingers less sore
need to work on transitions
I'm working on abandonment issues in therapy to figure out if I want/can do a relationship
Just bought a guitar
Trying to lean Call It What You Want
I only got A and D for now, my fingers are sore
Can't wait to get callouses
Trying to lean Call It What You Want
I only got A and D for now, my fingers are sore
Can't wait to get callouses
Crypto
I'm getting better, defintely learned a lot these last four months in my new job!
Still have a lot to learn, but I'm definitely improving. It's called habit. If you're developing all day, you'll get better, it's inevitable!
Still have a lot to learn, but I'm definitely improving. It's called habit. If you're developing all day, you'll get better, it's inevitable!
I'll be damned. A EFT therapist managed to find me... So I guess we're doing this
I don't know if I really want this actually.
I don't know if even want to be in a relationship right now?
Just thought I'd put this one in here in case...I feel like I'm putting this one in the back burner because other people will feel pity or say: oh what a sad single woman...
I'm going to start working on figuring out if I want this or not?
I don't know if even want to be in a relationship right now?
Just thought I'd put this one in here in case...I feel like I'm putting this one in the back burner because other people will feel pity or say: oh what a sad single woman...
I'm going to start working on figuring out if I want this or not?
Done on 03/04/2021!
Should take about 18 months to get a reply! Wait up!
Should take about 18 months to get a reply! Wait up!
1- my investments pay off to financial independence (reach 100K on my invetments)
2- down payment on a house is ready
3- I am very good at my job and I am getting the recognition for it
4- I am working on a passion project
5- I work with a group to solve social/envrionmental issues (join a NGO)
6- I am very good at guitar
7- I am clear on my purpose to start my own business
8- I accumulated enough resources for a book
9- I met the attractive successful man of my dreams who loves me
10- I traveled to wonderful places with great people
2- down payment on a house is ready
3- I am very good at my job and I am getting the recognition for it
4- I am working on a passion project
5- I work with a group to solve social/envrionmental issues (join a NGO)
6- I am very good at guitar
7- I am clear on my purpose to start my own business
8- I accumulated enough resources for a book
9- I met the attractive successful man of my dreams who loves me
10- I traveled to wonderful places with great people
Retrieved my passport. I should now look into all the paperwork!
7 Things x 2021
My seven answers to the Day Zero alternative New Year's resolutions poll:
My seven answers to the Day Zero alternative New Year's resolutions poll:
- Learn how to Be better at my work
- Start bloging + podcast
- Stop being distracted
- Take a vacation to connect with my family
- Find my future husband
- Try writing
- Be more financially wealthy
Just learned that I got my passport after 5 months. I'll go get it right before the holidays and then start the process for my application
3 days in
138 days in
I feel like I trust myself to do challenging things more and I let myself express my emotions and thoughts even though I still judge what comes out. I just practise not giving much importance to whether or not other people judge what comes out and what they might think of it.
I definitely say what I suppose/think/feel knowing it's possibly false and welcome any correction/validation/invalidation. The goal is to let it out.
I definitely say what I suppose/think/feel knowing it's possibly false and welcome any correction/validation/invalidation. The goal is to let it out.
I'm definitely not reacting as much as I used to
I'm currently looking for an EMDR or EFT therapist.
I managed to solve my anxious attachment issues and I might be relying on rationalizing my feeling instead of feeling them.
I managed to solve my anxious attachment issues and I might be relying on rationalizing my feeling instead of feeling them.
I can't stop thinking about this. I just can't get myself to start.
I know that once I start it will sail smoothly.
I can feel the creative energy expanding within me and it will have to be set loose at some point!!
I know that once I start it will sail smoothly.
I can feel the creative energy expanding within me and it will have to be set loose at some point!!
I had my first equine therapy experience and it revealed that this is something I have to work on:
- Take up space
- Be grounded in stillness and not moved easily to plase others
- Express my dislikes freely
- Have more courage
- Stop comparing myself to others
- Take up space
- Be grounded in stillness and not moved easily to plase others
- Express my dislikes freely
- Have more courage
- Stop comparing myself to others
Started Yoga Hatha this month
21/09: at 4K
I think I have listened and watched everything Whitney Cummings has done.
TODO: buy her book
Also, I've listened to a lot of Elizabeth Gilbert interviews.
TODO: buy her books
TODO: buy her book
Also, I've listened to a lot of Elizabeth Gilbert interviews.
TODO: buy her books
I did plan a nice thing for my parents and I.
They couldn't come to visit due to COVID.
We will do this when they come to visit when it's possible, or when I go to visit them
They couldn't come to visit due to COVID.
We will do this when they come to visit when it's possible, or when I go to visit them
gratitude: I marked this as completed because i've been using Presently for 87 days straight right now.
I work out about 2+ times a week
organized diet
I work out about 2+ times a week
organized diet
Goals before 30:
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1- Own my business: successful blog + podcast
2- Stable job + income
3- Own a house
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1- Own my business: successful blog + podcast
2- Stable job + income
3- Own a house
I've been taking piano lessons for a year
stopped because i've moved
i want to keep learning on my own
stopped because i've moved
i want to keep learning on my own
I want to start a blog and a podcast where i can express myself and produce something which tells my story and what i've learned so far and what i want to learn
Right now, i'm working as a software developer for a company which makes medical devices.
I still want to work as a software developer and feel like i belong in the company and in the team.
I want to be more passionate about my work and that will definitely help me become better at it
I still want to work as a software developer and feel like i belong in the company and in the team.
I want to be more passionate about my work and that will definitely help me become better at it
I already have a vision board with:
An indian temple
Nordic shed
Nantes elephant
vision of a home/appartment
alchemical symbols.
I reckon these are kind of vague.
I'm going to renew my visions and add:
- Writing a book
- Success Blogging
- Podcasting
- home with garden
An indian temple
Nordic shed
Nantes elephant
vision of a home/appartment
alchemical symbols.
I reckon these are kind of vague.
I'm going to renew my visions and add:
- Writing a book
- Success Blogging
- Podcasting
- home with garden
I didn't take psychology classes. But i was in psychoanalysis for 1 year. Read a lot. Learned a lot. Counts as a class!
I did it!
Quit my job in january. Contract ended right before the Covid confinement.
Post confinement got a job in Britanny!
Quit my job in january. Contract ended right before the Covid confinement.
Post confinement got a job in Britanny!
The goal here is:
-move to a city where i can have an income and be stable.
-work 80%
-take night school for clinical psychology
-move to a city where i can have an income and be stable.
-work 80%
-take night school for clinical psychology
- Meditate daily
-Write down 5 positive things that happened during the day before going to bed
-Write down 5 positive things that happened during the day before going to bed
Goals before 30:
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1 - Happiness + love + health
2 - Have my own business
3 - Have a beautiful home
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1 - Happiness + love + health
2 - Have my own business
3 - Have a beautiful home
fuck my life
The Strokes or Kasabian
This goal means putting myself first more often, expressing my feelings, not caring what others think of me more often, and saying what I think and not repressing what I think and feels to please others more often.
I have put others before myself all my life and I have always bit my tongue as to not to say hurtful things to others, but keep it inside and hurt myself instead, because I can take it.
I have no reason to think that others people aren't strong enough to deal with things, and more importantly it shouldn't matter to me as much.
Now, I will defend and protect myself as if I were "the others". I will tell people what I don't like, I will tell people when they says something hurtful, and I will tell them that I prefer this instead of that. And I will no longer think in loops how that makes them feel and I will no longer go above and beyond to please them and make them feel better at the expense of my own comfort.
I will continue to do my best to conduct myself in the best way I know towards people (and now towards myself as well), I will continue to help others when and if I can, but not beyond my limits.
I will continue to do my best to behave in the best way I can with strangers, but I will no longer put strangers above myself.
I have put others before myself all my life and I have always bit my tongue as to not to say hurtful things to others, but keep it inside and hurt myself instead, because I can take it.
I have no reason to think that others people aren't strong enough to deal with things, and more importantly it shouldn't matter to me as much.
Now, I will defend and protect myself as if I were "the others". I will tell people what I don't like, I will tell people when they says something hurtful, and I will tell them that I prefer this instead of that. And I will no longer think in loops how that makes them feel and I will no longer go above and beyond to please them and make them feel better at the expense of my own comfort.
I will continue to do my best to conduct myself in the best way I know towards people (and now towards myself as well), I will continue to help others when and if I can, but not beyond my limits.
I will continue to do my best to behave in the best way I can with strangers, but I will no longer put strangers above myself.
Day2:
- 3/5
5 things for which I'm grateful:
1- Having a roof over my head
2- Having a job that pays good
3- Having people who love me
4- Being able to stay positive and be my own support system
5- Good health
5 things that make me happy:
1- Beans :3
2- My cat Chocolat
3- Coming back from a good workout in the gym
4- Being close to the raditor
5- When my appartment is clean
- 3/5
5 things for which I'm grateful:
1- Having a roof over my head
2- Having a job that pays good
3- Having people who love me
4- Being able to stay positive and be my own support system
5- Good health
5 things that make me happy:
1- Beans :3
2- My cat Chocolat
3- Coming back from a good workout in the gym
4- Being close to the raditor
5- When my appartment is clean
Routine for 14 days:
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After waking up early:
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- Have a nice breakfast
- Go through goals in the day
- Do some physical exercise
- Shower
- Read or listen to something that interests me
Before going to bed:
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- Read
- Go through goals
- Write down 5 things that i'm grateful for
- Write down 5 things that make me happy
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After waking up early:
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- Have a nice breakfast
- Go through goals in the day
- Do some physical exercise
- Shower
- Read or listen to something that interests me
Before going to bed:
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- Read
- Go through goals
- Write down 5 things that i'm grateful for
- Write down 5 things that make me happy
Day1: 27/11/2018
I cannot put this goal into in progress yet. It's running in the background, in the back of my head, until something clicks and I can bring it into the foreground.
I catch myself more and more often thinking about how what I'm doing at the moment can contribute to my finding the idea of a business. For example, this weekend I went to see my boyfriend (who is in a similar state of mind) and we were strolling down the beach then started noticing that we are both in a state of mind where anything can be an input to help find an idea for business.
I catch myself more and more often thinking about how what I'm doing at the moment can contribute to my finding the idea of a business. For example, this weekend I went to see my boyfriend (who is in a similar state of mind) and we were strolling down the beach then started noticing that we are both in a state of mind where anything can be an input to help find an idea for business.
This one is my Evrest !
I've completed the one year mark in my first job in software.
Background in Electronics and Computer Science. Theoretical, some practise but not enough.
Work has not been great. Functional testing. So my goal is to actually code, not because I want a carreer in software development at programming level, but just to have technical knowledge and not feel oblivious everytime someone reasons at a lower level than functional level. Or maybe to prove to myself that I can do it and that I did it and move on to something that is actually interesting to me.
So far coding is -for many reasons- correlated to my self worth and to my self-esteem. I did pass my exams right ? But I'm completely blocked and my mind goes blank when I'm asked about some aspect of code, or something very technical. Giving an answer on the spot is very hard, psychologically.
Anyway, I take full responsibility of my mental blocage regarding code, but I must say that lack of female representation in the workplace is very impactful. Meaning, feelings of not belonging in the workplace, being an imposter, being very different from my colleagues, imposter syndrome.
I never have the time to code review my peers. I will make time to code review (C language). It will not be fast and easy since most code is not commented.
I have started reading O'Reilly's C++ Prgramming book as a start because I will be starting my first task in writing a testing plan in C++.
Let's do this
I've completed the one year mark in my first job in software.
Background in Electronics and Computer Science. Theoretical, some practise but not enough.
Work has not been great. Functional testing. So my goal is to actually code, not because I want a carreer in software development at programming level, but just to have technical knowledge and not feel oblivious everytime someone reasons at a lower level than functional level. Or maybe to prove to myself that I can do it and that I did it and move on to something that is actually interesting to me.
So far coding is -for many reasons- correlated to my self worth and to my self-esteem. I did pass my exams right ? But I'm completely blocked and my mind goes blank when I'm asked about some aspect of code, or something very technical. Giving an answer on the spot is very hard, psychologically.
Anyway, I take full responsibility of my mental blocage regarding code, but I must say that lack of female representation in the workplace is very impactful. Meaning, feelings of not belonging in the workplace, being an imposter, being very different from my colleagues, imposter syndrome.
I never have the time to code review my peers. I will make time to code review (C language). It will not be fast and easy since most code is not commented.
I have started reading O'Reilly's C++ Prgramming book as a start because I will be starting my first task in writing a testing plan in C++.
Let's do this
Books wishlist:
-Atlas Shrugged
-Atlas Shrugged